Submitting as Therapy

It’s amazing how I feel when I’m submitting to a beautiful woman or being used by Her for Her enjoyment. I find that now, with all that’s going on in the world today, this would be SO satisfying for me. I probably will still not want the very painful pleasures that would be included in the submission, but, the intensity of the actions would make up for the suffering.

But, I have also realized that the kink I’ve involved myself in for so many years is definitely a need, something that HAS to take place in my life. Whether it’s attending kink events or being at the mercy of a Woman who enjoys using me for Her pleasure and everything in between. I know it has to happen and when things are a little more back to normal, I intend to take full advantage of opportunities I’ve let go previously.

Now realizing that, even if it involves painful pleasures, it is therapy for a creative like me. I miss the fear that came along with submitting. The intensity in knowing that the two of us or, if I am lucky (or unlucky), three or four will engage in activities that may either put me in bliss or have me wondering why I even involve myself in this. Either way, being in the moment when BDSM is at play is something I NEED and will cherish once I’m back in the hands of a Woman (or maybe Women) who would take delight in making me suffer for Her (or Them).

Submitting as Therapy